Chocolate Cake, Wine & Coffee

I'm in a little bit of a transition well little it really isn't I'm in huge transition in life, everything is in a whirlpool right now- career, location, family, financial. Everything is in a change at this moment. Here this is where being single sucks! I wish someone would just hold my hand through it all. But at the same time I'm glad I don't have anyone around as well so I can settle things down and get back to normal so I can be a good someone to be around. Thank God for chocolate cake, red wine and/or coffee. Not that I am sitting around gorging on it and getting drunk, fat or wired off of coffee that's not the sight I am creating. It's just a nice piece of cake and a few bites here and there when I need it and a nice mellow smooth glass of red wine to ease some of the stress or coffee to get me up and going. I play music and light candles and kick back, reading, working or watching mindless reality TV. I know that in these times I grow and gain wisdom but it feels so isolating at times. Does this mean I'm being forced to change to let someone new in? It's a good thought and I know I am getting rid of some of the past which is nice and refreshing! I have learned to embrace these times and take it on with a good spirit. Even though I cry and get frustrated I know it's all supposed to be. So I concentrate on what's to come all the Good, Love, Laughter and feelings of wow that was all worth it! Okay maybe too melodramatic the fact is these times suck but you just somehow know within that it will only be for a short time and things will be better at the end of it all. I have a lot to be thankful for and things aren't so bad I'm talking about when your out of your comfort level and have to take action. I remember when I was in a relationship and I was thinking it was too vanilla, no action, no challenges and now guess what I got my challenges that I asked the Universe for! So now I am asking that doors open to where I am supposed to be and that I will have the wisdom to recognize them being open. I also need to get out a little more. I have been in hiding so I need some fun times and I need to explore. I missed being my own person, I missed my freedom, I missed my True Self. So now I am able to have all of these things back and it'e nice, it's just a bit of a transition again.