Okay long time no post. I can't believe how much time has passed since I last posted. I thought actually that I would not have to post to this any longer because I thought I had found "The One". Hehehe Is there such a thing? Although somewhere deeply I knew he wasn't. He wasn't my Kindred Spirit or Soul Mate because I recognize those feelings. Those feelings make you crazy in love been there done that. I was in love just not crazily. I won't mention his name or much about him due to the fact that we share a beautiful daughter together. Moving on...Yes it's true I went away and came back a Single Mom although this blog is not about that I have another one for that. This one will continue to focus on my single life which as of today is not very exciting. If you count the highlight being a trip to Starbucks everyday exciting. I do have some great male friends around that are always around me but not sure if that counts. Some of it does most of them are guys I dated and then befriended them afterwards for some reason. Probably because when I usually date someone and get that close it's because I feel some sort of honest and true connection with them and it lasts even after the relationship. But the last person I didn't feel that I just thought hmmmm this is different maybe it would work better. Is this making sense? Well all I can say is that (whoever is or is not reading this) never settle and always know that if you feel there is more well there usually is. Or so I hope. I've seen it in action by some of the people I know and their relationships where their guy is in to them even after two kids and all that. So I know my someone is out there. I wonder what is he doing & How long will it take for him to find me or me find him. Pathetic? I don't know I'm just typing my thoughts. Well I know he's out there like some pathetic "Charlotte"! But truly I do he's just busy right now and I'm busy trying to settle my life down a bit for him to come into it. So it's late and I have some me time to do stuff like this instead of being on date but those days are not over. As soon as I start putting myself out there this may get more interesting-hopefully. I've been obsessing over my baby weight it's not too bad but just not where I was prior to preggers. It's so funny how I would complain about weight and I was complaining because Why? Oh my size 5 jeans were a little snug now and then- oohh what weight problems I had back then...it makes me laugh. At least now that I've crossed the size line I know I will appreciate my size more. I'm just happy that I actually love to run and look forward to training for a Marathon soon. SO I'm getting there and getting more confidant. A very handsome guy told me last night on the phone that if I still wear my fishnets and make up and be and act sexy it doesn't matter what size you are. It's how you work it. So I'm working it more and more everyday regaining my old sense of self. I'm grateful I get the opportunity to do so because in my last relationship I was not able to. Meaning able to be myself -true sense of self. Only a few people can bring it out of me and those people know me well and are still active in my life and well being. I thank God for them! Well good thoughts on future love, sex and fun! Oh yeah good thing there is spelling feature on here -so much for placing in the 3rd grade City spelling bee!